1.25.2012

From the Thesis

Had some quiet time alone today, so I revisited my Master's thesis. I felt so in stride with writing it that I find myself from time to time returning to that document with a new set of eyes. 

This part was from the third chapter of findings and analysis where I begin to examine the three spiritual principles that underline Emerson's teachings:

Emerson encourages his readers to cultivate self-awareness, and he accomplishes this by conveying instilling self-confidence in his audience. He did not encourage blind faith, however, but hoped to indoctrinate a critical self-awareness and self-confidence underpinned by humility. Emerson’s stirring, though intellectually complex, poetic lectures and essays found a home amongst a willing American audience hungry for spiritual sustenance, and continue to do so today.

Intensely observant of his surroundings, Emerson recognized an urgency for each individual to reassess his/her personal economy to self-construct an authentic consciousness. That construction depends upon knowledge and interaction to continuously reproduce itself, and the knowledge Emerson perceived as truth was different from the acquired knowledge many took from secondary sources. For Emerson, knowledge was reason experienced authentically through one’s intuition. Knowledge is organic and reproduces within a single human being, so in a sense, authentic knowledge construction is a progressive birthing of newer consciousness driven by feedback. Emerson distinguished the seemingly separate means of constructing individual knowledge in his society that was fatigued and spiritually disoriented... (went on to discuss purpose of findings and analysis within the scope of the thesis).

Emersonian principle states that each individual has the innate potential for spiritual awareness, which mobilizes right action. The principal aim of life is to cultivate the soul’s growth, and while this process may bring about struggle, hesitation, and self-doubt, the yielding result of reflexivity permits the understanding of unity. Once inwardness and unity are achieved, engagement in right action is dynamic, progressive, and automatic. He sensed that people could be infinitely more than they presently were, and this perpetual idealism was born in part by his confidence in the present moment and the ever-evolving new.


As I read this with new eyes, I, of course, see places where I could tighten, rephrase, clarify the structure and presentation. Boy am I tempted. But I will leave it alone- there are so many ways we evolve as individuals and writing style and strength is just one of them. One thing I know will always be a constant, however, is returning to the stream of American Transcendentalist thought, to take renewing drinks of inspiration and confidence, knowing that while we can be inspired from those things outside our selves, the most meaningful inspiration comes from taking the path toward inwardness.

1.08.2012

Nate

Two.  Nate turned two today.  




I love you my sweet, sweet boy.  You make the world a better place. And Grandpa, your great-grandpa, is smiling down on you, every day.

1.07.2012

Rememberance

My father's family has suffered a huge loss.  My grandfather, Herbert Wertz, passed away this week.  While he had been ill for some time, the finality of his passing has me often sitting still in silence.


on his 85th birthday, 2010


For the first couple of days after his passing, I woke with silent tears rolling down my cheeks.  I miss him so, so much.  And it has only been a few days. He was a strength in my life that was nothing short of a blessing from God.  It has been so, so hard to see my grandmother struggle losing the love of her life, a man who treated her like a queen from day one.


His obituary, while a respectable and honorary rendering of his life, in no way captures the kind of warrior he was.  And not in a war vet kind of way.  My grandfather came from very humble beginnings, with a weak father figure, and grew into a man of gravitas, strength, perseverance, and reason. He overcame odds and never once gloated or was ostentatious in any way.


Nothing quite prepares us for death. And while intellectually, and often even spiritually, I know that life goes on after our bodies can no longer sustain, there has been a small, quiet barren feeling surrounding my own mortality as I've been processing the passing of my grandfather. 


So if you so happen to read this, and you believe in prayer or the power of thought, I ask for you to pray for or keep my grieving grandmother in your thoughts.  


I love you, Grandpa. 

1.01.2012

New Year's, Good Times

Happy New Year.  Do you do resolutions?  Some years I do, some years I do not.  


This year, our friend Matt visited with us, for the second year in a row, to ring in the year.  I love it when he visits. He has great energy.  Last night we also had my friend, JoAnne, and her son, Trenton stop by for a little low-key celebration.









So this year?  I did not write out a list this year.  I do know that I would like to, through action, reconnect with the ideals and things that feel right to me.  Spend more time on here, my little place on the internet.  I want to read more (parenting books.  and, maybe popular fiction- though that is not a type I typically gravitate to, so maybe). Keep on with the yoga, walks, and overall solid wellness routine.  Continue trying, and hopefully accomplishing, to keep it simple. Live on less.  Reconnect with nature.  All things I already do, have done, or aren't a stretch for me to do. All things that help me live my life in a way that feels good and right to me, and my family.